Which thing is harder: singing or writing? I've been thinking about that lately. Posting here takes something out of me that's much different than when I sing. It's something I'm much more conscious of that I have to dig for, when I write. And the flow of it is harder to get lost in than when I sing. But when I sing and make a video I have to get into "that mood". It used to come easy, when I first started, but sometimes these days I have to give myself time to find "that mood". I constantly have ideas for things to write about, and songs to sing. But often those ideas come at times when I can't actually DO anything about them! And then sometimes I forget the idea. Or when it comes back to me (or I actually wrote it down) and I have the time for it I've lost the passion. Or I just don't feel it as much as I had originally. I can't force IT. Or IT won't be that great. IT won't feel authentic. But sometimes I have to force M

I'm jealous of: people who live in a house people who live in a REALLY old house women with wider shoulders and bigger chests than me anyone who gets to do their art for money on a regular basis anyone who has a book published anyone who has a popular blog  anyone who has a popular youtube channel couples who got married around the time I did and are still married people who get to travel on a regular basis people who live close to their family and have fun together often See, the list isn't THAT long. The list of lacks. If I really dug deep I could find other things, but I don't think it counts if I have to try and DIG for them. The other night I had this idea, as I couldn't fall asleep, and I was thinking about this topic of jealousy that's been on my mind...I thought about just listing the things I'm jealous of. A catchy way to start a post! But also--a freeing activity! Because in it I realized the list was finite. And not nearly as lo